Does anyone else become introverted and extroverted on and off at times because I do a lot of the time.
Wow I haven’t been on tumblr for a while. I’m back! I’m so popular. Just kidding. Being popular is for squares. But that doesn’t count spongebob cause he’s my homie. I’ve been going through a lot (no surprise right). Don’t we all? I had a rough day. I felt like I was seriously sick. I couldn’t talk to anyone. Why is it so hard to reach out? Oh because I always think I’m wrong for talking about my feelings. Why is that? Oh because I don’t know if I’ll get judged. Because I’m vulnerable to judgment at that point. So I’m back at square one. Is that a thing people say? Sometimes when I’m like this I lose all my personality and I just think the whole world is dark when everyone else is really not as down as I am. I let my depression affect me so hard today I’d isn’t want to do anything. But I did get a lot of reading done. I didn’t read out loud this time and surprisingly I could focus on the story. Reading out loud is fun but is tiring. I have to sound out all the words perfectly before I can go on to the next word. My sister says I have OCD. I think she has it worse. But yeah enough about her. Only on social media do I get to talk about myself and the weird shit I feel and do. Thanks tumblr.
Man! The year flew by really fast! I’m amazed that I’ve made it this far. Currently I am working on my confidence and I think I’m doing pretty well. See how I said I think? Yeah cause I’m not sure. Cause I’m never sure. Cause I am still always unsure. Lol buuuut, no big deal. My optimistic works it’s magic and I’m never too anxious or depressed to get into isolation mode where I don’t want to get sunlight and turn as pale as a vampire. I’m great, Just great. You probably think I’m panicking but I’m not. I’m just really hyper. And excited for what’s to come tomorrow and for the rest of the week. Things have been turning up well for me despite all the negatives that happened so much during the summer. But that doesn’t stop me from living life no sir eee!